I know I have been awfully quiet as of late.  I’m not even sure if anyone reads anymore.  I never lost my desire to write, I just find it hard to let it all spew out when this site is so publicly known (not famous per se but known to friends and family in real life).  Plus, as I get older and take on more normal grown up responsibilities, I find it so hard to carve out some time to write.

Lately, I have been ON TOP of things.  This is rarity as I usually swing between being really fucking amazingly organized and complete slothlike and naval gazing.  But these past few weeks – just checking stuff off the list like crazy.  I’m organized at work, I’ve got the home front covered and have even been able to get all of my cleaning done during the week so I can use weekends for other productive stuff – like fun outings or house projects.  I’m even getting my online life organized and have cleaned up things on this site and added content to others.

It feels good! Except …

Well, except for the fact that there seems like no time to just, well, naval gaze.  Or be lazy.  The one thing I haven’t really been able to keep up on are my hobbies – watching my shows and reading my books and magazines.  And I love doing both but when I sit down and just chill out, my mind races to five million other things that I could be doing with my time.

I couldn’t imagine if we had kids.  I barely have enough time these days to get home from work, make dinner, clean up after dinner, pick up the house a bit, maybe start a load of laundry then before I know it, it’s bedtime.  Sometimes, the most tiring thing about adulthood is the neverending cycle of stuff that needs to be done.

Clean the house it gets dirty again.  Pay the bills then do it next month.  Wash the laundry and another load is ready.  I love the accomplished feeling of a clean house and tasks complete but even when they’re all done, they’re never done.

That being said, I’m in a good place right now.  I’ve always had a hard time proceeding with projects if other stuff isn’t done – I work much better with a clean slate, an organized house and mind.  I’m more inspired, more creative – my brain just seems to make more sense of the world.

But I’ve gotten a lot of things done that aren’t on repeat.  Steve and I have done some projects on the house – installed gutters, replaced porch posts, put up screens on the patio door and some windows (which makes the breeze blow through the house beautifully).  I’ve organized a lot of things on my Internet sites that I use – and added some features on this site.

I’ve got a HUGE list of blog entry ideas that I’ve just been saving up.  I’ve been inspired.  Now I just need to get it out in some coherent thoughts.

So I’m going to make a concerted effort to be more active here and online.  Now that I’ve got things cleaned up and organized the way I want them, for the most part, I feel like I can concentrate on this site better.  It may not get back to what it used to be because frankly, the blogosphere is no where near what it was when I was started this place.  But maybe I can get at least get back to some of the cataloging of my life because for me that is the most valuable part about keeping this place.  That and the readers who have still stuck around and those whom I have met and become friends with through this site.

This week I’m concentrating on A Week in the Life.  It’s a little project I decided to spontaneously pick up this week.  I’m not sure if I’ll be posting everyday like they plan but I’m at least going to do it offline then post it cumulatively when I’m done.  I think it’s perfect to do this week because Friday is my 29th birthday and I think it might be something neat to look back on, particularly if I can keep it up each year.

I’m not going to say it’s a revival, I’m not going to say I’m back.  Because I’ve learned in the past that I’m not all that good at keeping promises.  However, I feel like I’ve got stuff together so maybe I’ll surprise even myself.